Prospects

by Matthew W. Baker

If in Tonopah. If in my sexless teens.
            If in my mother’s dank basement—low
light from the one pull-bulb hanging
 
in the center of the room casting
            shadows as I danced to death
metal. If rain came once a year and I spent
 
each storm absorbing the candied scent
            of petrichor until I fell over,
sweet-drunk. If I never questioned
 
what swam by my legs swallowed
            by brackish creek waters in summer, and each fall
the temperature cooled enough to drive
 
the ladybugs inside as if swarming the porch door
            like a church congregation crowding around
a baptismal font in a small town stitched together
 
by pyrolatry, each new baby a living flame.
            If half-way through the long descent
of a mine shaft the pulleys failed—my body
 
jerked, jostled, left weightless as the elevator cage
            careened downward—then I would have praised
more of what I took for granted, savored
 
dust blown into my mouth from the barren
            playa’s peeling of its skin. If the sun
burned blue, revolved around the Earth.
 
If melting glaciers lowered sea level, if
            gender wasn’t a crime, if two people
didn’t die each second. If out of the cold, seemingly
 
empty nanometers of observed space
            a voice rang, then I would have lived
someone else’s life.

Matthew W. Baker currently lives in Reno, NV and teaches middle and high school English. He received an MFA in Poetry from the University of Nevada, Reno. Some of his work has appeared in Sundog Lit, Sierra Nevada Review, Yemassee Journal, The Meadow, Swamp Ape Review, and antiBODY: An Anthology of Poetry and Medicine, among others. Follow him on Twitter @mmbakes.